Sunday, October 20, 2013

I Don’t want to Cry, I Just Want to Get On With My Life

teardropI don’t want to cry, I don’t want to yell, I don’t want to stop getting up in the morning, or cut myself. I also don’t want to keep displacing blame for my own relationship failures.

I just want to get on with my life.

I’m not the suicidal type and have never even though of harming myself, and I definitely am not the type to feel sorry about myself for very long.

Aside from all that, I don’t want to have to try so hard anymore. I also don’t want to hate myself because I’m not fitting into the normal societal mold. What business is it of anyone anyway why I’m still single at my age (39)? People need to just live their own lives and deal with their own issues and leave me alone.

I want someone who accepts me for who I am or I want to just be single. I also want to love that person just as much as he loves me. If he can’t accept my past, then how can he expect me to accept his, and on top of it all his drama?