Saturday, October 5, 2013

Don't Give Up on Destiny Like I Did

I feel like I could have more of an effect on society if I were to have actually practiced what I used to preach for the longest time. However, I didn't so all I have left to offer the younger generation is don't give up on destiny like I did. 

To Virgins and How I Lost Mine

To what I'm referring is how I lost my virginity. It's no shocking story here -- just happens how it happens for a lot people who used to want to wait until married. I was just at the wrong place at the wrong time, and ironically it was after ending a relationship with an ex I loved who tried to pressure me into sex. 

No matter why I did it, all I remember is feeling depressed afterwards. I finally had nothing left to give to my future husband -- at least not anything I hadn't yet done. I also gave it to someone I didn't even love, which makes it even more depressing. 

Ten years later, I still feel the same way. Even men that used to sleep around when they were younger all of the sudden started losing respect for me. All because of this because I no longer felt good about myself after I did it. 

Of course, the classic male double standard of being okay for men to play the field and not women is not fun to deal with either. However, no matter what, I can't point fingers at the men who gave up their virginity long before I ever did. 

I have to just face facts. I gave up on destiny, and I repeat don't give up on destiny like I did. 

However, if you already did what I did, try not to beat yourself. God gives people a second chance. 

I myself feel because I decided to lose my virginity before I ever was married it delayed my destiny. However, it doesn't mean it's too late to find true love. All I can do is pick up the pieces, clean up my own emotional mess, and carry on. And try to do better next time.