Friday, November 2, 2012

He Says, "I'd Rather be Single...It's Just Easier"

I challenged one person from my past who tried to weasel his way back in. I probably shouldn't have done it-show my worst side to someone I hadn't seen in years. However, I wanted to see what he was really made of. He seemed as if he wanted to present himself as this totally innocent person who could do know wrong and portray himself as this committed person now.

He even made a comment about how "we can work whatever it is out." I didn't believe him, so I thought I would test him. I'm not sure if that was the right thing to do, but I just didn't know if I wanted to waste any time. I thought he'd have to see the bad side of me. I let him know in no calm way how I felt about feeling rejected by  him.

He then said, "I'd rather be single. It's just easier."

In a way I understood, especially since he has kids now. I myself often thought I'm better off on my own because of certain family issues I deal with.

However, he shouldn't make promises he doesn't even know he can keep (probably just because of some 'feeling' he had that day). Also, he's no picnic to deal with sometimes either, so who is he to judge? I hope by now he really has taken a good look in the mirror at his own faults and stops judging me.

Also, I hope he learns that the grass is NOT greener on the other side, and that's what I wanted to show him. If he thinks he wants to be with me just because he thinks it will be better with me than anyone else, he's got another thing coming.

He never even really knew me for who I really was, and as far as I'm concerned, if he doesn't take the time to do so then maybe he never really cared about me at all. I'm sorry that my life is not just one big party like a guy would like it to be, but it's just NOT! And that's the way it is!