Further Explanation of My Story
I told the police already that I did have sex willingly with this man about 90% of the time. However, I also told the police that I estimate approximately a dozen times when he took it from me without consent.
I think even if I am involved sexually with a man he can't take it without knowing I'm okay with it! This person seemed to think he was entitled to sex whenever he wants it from me just because we were boyfriend-girlfriend but I say that sex is ALWAYS supposed to be out of FREE WILL no less than 100% of the time!
Also, because of his actions from the very beginning of the relationship, I struggle with post-traumatic fear and anger. I put up a huge wall in case he were to aggress upon me again.