Thursday, May 21, 2009

I am Grieving Quite a Bit

I don't know what I am going through. I wanted to believed this person had
changed, and I am sad as I really loved him and wanted to give him another
chance. I wanted to believe he is different now, but instead I am wondering
if he is truly living proof that there are people out there with no conscience.

This hurts so much as I really loved this person more than I ever loved
anyone. It could be just my problem, but what if this person really can't be
trusted? How could a person every really know for sure if the uneasiness is just
fear or if I am  having those uneasy feelings for a reason?

Update 10/13/2011

I never did get full resolution of the above. I wish I had, but I think part of me just doesn't want to know the truth in case the truth is less than pleasant. I think sometimes the memories the way they are is maybe all I need even if it could be a total lie in the end. I don't want to think bad of anyone I ever dated or fallen in love with.