Wednesday, March 18, 2009

I'm the jerk sometimes, Too!


I used to complain all the time that the men I meet do not want to commit.
Then I suddenly realized that they are not the only one. I mean...what about
me?

I will illustrate using this story...

About six months ago I mean the sweetest, nicest guy. Really, the only main
reason I didn't stay with him was because I was doubting how much we had in
common. I also am sure I was used to the chaos and crisis and drama and and
excitement I had in other relationships.

Anyway, I met this really nice guy and wound up eventually ending it because
he seems a bit "boring" to me I guess. I mean...although I did feel
comfortable and safe around him and all of that...I do realized that maybe I
am the one who is the jerk sometimes.

That the reason I was attracting some of these guys who don't want a
commitment is because I don't either. Even though I don't have as much time
as a guy to decide if I want to have kids and all of that...well...it
doesn't change the fact that I often feel this "pressure" to just "settle
down" even though I may not be 100% sure that it is the person I want to be
with.