Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Why did he Have to be so Nice to me? (Trying to get on with my life)

Why did he have to be so nice to me. I am trying to get on with my life. Why couldn't he have thought of bringing me a Christmas plant or other nice gift when we were still together? Why do I always feel like we are on the brink of breaking up before I know how he really feels about me?

I don't know what to do. I envision nothing but constant pain and agony and ups and downs with him. Yet, these potential "make-up" times seem to erase my memory of all the terrible
"break-up" times. Why is that I wonder?

What is it about that five minutes of bliss after a 13th or 14th reconciliation with the same person that seems so special? Isn't there a way to have that kind of bliss with a person who is always in my life? I wonder what it would be like to be in a stable relationship.