Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Does He Care, or Is he Just Too Afraid to Get Diseases?

I sometimes wonder does he really care or is he just too afraid to get diseases? How would I ever know if he truly cares about me?

I suppose if I had never given it to him in the first place I maybe would know for sure. Also, how much longer should I hang on to somebody, knowing full well he may only want to get onto me?

What was I thinking? I really want to be loved, and am very tempted to get back into a situation where I know I may not be able to be loved.

I mean, it would be nice if a guy could tell me he loves me and tell me he wants to be with me because he enjoys my company. Not just because he doesn't want to try to get with someone new yet, because if he does there is no going back.

I mean, if he is thinking about going out with someone else why doesn't he? Why does he want to hang onto what we have, even though I have obviously not been in it?

The only thing I can think of really is that he just wants to keep me hanging on for as long as possible. The longer he hangs on to me the longer he can procrastinate getting with someone new. Yeah, I think he's just too afraid of diseases.

He did bring me a nice Christmas plant today though.